Crowned Castle

Far And Few Between

Friday, May 09, 2003

---abrupt---
is it out of dissapointment or blissfulness.
mother's day is arriving..
exams begins tomorrow..
all are tied down and stretched to limits..
the one who brought me out into this world shed a tear..
it's out of happiness and being touched..i guess..
contributed to the gift..
a bag..picked by elder sis..
given away 6mins ago..
the water welling eyes..the thankful words..
was it bcause she was happy that she had something new
to use for tomorrow . . .?
what was it she wanted..?
lately...
"surrounding" changes out of the blue..
resistance declines..
home is flooding..and the wind is blowing too hard..
the pressure forces..
management breaks down..
blurry eyes..fragile souls..
little thoughts meant so much to her..
yet no one knew it before hand..
the sensitivity of hers..
being unstable and ill..
the tough gets going when shes alone..
how uncaring we all seemed to be..
but the wall blocks..
..dreaming it would disintegrate?
it will..yes it will
for one fine day..
we'll be smiling again..

You are Storm!

You are very strong and very protective of those
you love. You are in tune with nature and are
very concerned with justice and humanity.
Unfortunately, certain apprehensions and fears
are very hard for you to overcome, and can
often inhibit you when most need to be strong.

Which X-Men character are you most like?
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>>so yeah.

Verticle Horizon
Best I Ever Had (Grey Sky Morning)

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

Chorus
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

Chorus
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted

Chorus
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever

Still the one song, the one i turn to, the one which never failed,
the only thing, the soul revival, the soul-mate song, the only tune,
Suitable for emulsified moods.
When theres nothing, it plays back
-repeatedly for now.
For fours years - It is still in my "repository
Rennounced, intricated, entangled, intimidated, glorious, frigid, doubtful
dragged, "downfall", agitated, numbed, drooped, blissful , joy-ed etc.
whatever it may be, the lyrics, rhythm, mellow, tone . . .
it "psychologically" does wonders - for me
Even if its just for a brief moment.

Wednesday, May 07, 2003

ok...this month progress card was'nt that bad so far i guess...

FEB

EL - 10 / 20 (er..lucky me?)
CL - 29.5 / 50 (ooh.phew..)
MT - 3 / 16 , 11/25 (ahh..wtf? -wails-)
LIT- 8.5 / 25 (ooh f**k shit.....)
PHY - 12/20 , 9.5 / 20 (nvm.be contented..damn the 2nd one..hur)
BIO - 4 / 25 (oh for heaven sake!!??)
AC - 9.5 / 20 (just a lil more wont do..-pops tongue-)
S.S - 1 / 25 (oh WOW...coolest result so far..yeah...)

-Now for March n April-

MAR

EL - 11.5 / 25 (WTF? STILL BORDER LINE?..damn..work it man)
CL - 28 / 50 (dropped..but at least cleared..*p.h.e.w.*)
MT - 14 / 20 (oh my Tian?)
LIT - 15 / 25 (Tian oh my??)
PHY - 18 / 25 (*rubbs eye!!!*)
BIO - 3 / 14 (erm..i admit..theres no effort..bahhh)
AC - 11.5 / 13 (Did i see it correctly??..erm..??)
S.S - 5 /12 (damn..just missed by a point..f**k)

APRIL

EL - 23 / 40 (right..theres hope!..just MUCH more effort...-sinks-)
MT - 14 / 15 (OH??.OH??...OMG!?)
LIT - 17 / 25 (kae..the cher loves me now or WHAT?)

and for all this...i get 10bucks from my mom...hm...ok..i see..this is way too "absurd"

-BURST WITH ANXIETY-

Tuesday, May 06, 2003

right...
is it just me
or blogger's fault
blogger..you really hate don't you
just pusblish my post would you
damn f**king c**b** n*b* network.
-heave a sigh-

Monday, May 05, 2003

:: ur best fren invades.. ::

i SO hope u like ur blog now..
yays..
i tink its nice=)..
love u darling..
-hugs-..

:: leaves ::

Eyes wide open - it may seem
its a mist
"brrr" and then heave a sigh
Turning inside out..
Rain, rain on my face
It hasn't stopped raining for days
Soon i may be one with the mud
seep through the cracks,
drain right through.
___________________________
No. I don't want to...don't let me
Calm the storms that drench my eyes
Dry the streams - still flowing
the Exhaustion takes over
shed your heart breath pain and flee
I'm not one for reaching
If Denial Helps

For the question in the mind
just want to know the reasons
why
One told me ..
Live your life and walk away
Don't wait any longer -
theres more than just this
Deep down inside
i hear' em crying
forcing its way out
Another dream just got broken
another tear had dripped..
I'm burnt some empty reasons
It's stuck in my thoughts
And I never sleep, without an endless dream

Is anybody home in there?
I unexpectedly dropped by your heart...
Through my eyes I envisioned you
But I don't know.
nothing stays the same...
Lonely stayed with me
and pride began to fade...
The eye tells a million stories
of what we hold inside..
Soul-searching
diggg it -
weep it
(if possible)
Lies and make believes
It's alright. It's alright
Take me
where Home is
. . . . .